Hello! It’s been a while. I’ve been gathering my thoughts and sorting stuff in my mind, so I needed a well earned break from over thinking and needed to just do ME for a little while. I hope that’s ok. Ive been spending time with my family, reading, writing and concentrating on my photography. To be honest I really needed to re-evaluate shit, I’ve been letting things get to me that I shouldn’t. Like social media, what other people are posting, thinking and whether they are judging me or not. I hate that these things bother me and I am really trying to be brave about it and think fuck it, if they don’t like me they can just unfollow me. It’s harder than it sounds.
One thing that’s changed the most for me over this past month is Slimming World. After a lot of deliberating I have decided to finish attending the group’s and following the plan altogether. This choice came after discovering a book when I was away in London that I read cover to cover in a day and a half, this book is called The Goddess Revolution by Mel Wells. Now usually I’m  not into the ‘self help’ type thing but I was talking to a lovely lady that I follow on Instagram and she recommended it. Needless to say I was completely absorbed by it within minutes. While there are some things in there that I don’t 100% agree with and wouldn’t necessarily follow to the letter but the overall ethos of the book spoke to me on a totally different level and came at the perfect time for me, because things have not been good for a while.

I’ve discovered that a lot of my depressive state, anxiety about the way I look and feel and how others perceive me revolves around food. Losing weight was great, looking slimmer was brilliant but over all STILL didn’t make me happy. Not on the inside, I quickly realised it was all becoming a numbers game for me. I HAD to see those numbers decreasing, there was no other option. They had to, but even when they did it wasn’t enough. I was still miserable inside. I was missing food, food that I loved to eat and getting to a place where I couldn’t think of anything other than what I was putting inside my body.

I was waking up Mondays feeling great, on plan and full steam ahead. By Tuesday I was feeling ok, thinking and counting a lot more but over all ok. Come the evening wanting a treat but remembering you can’t you have already had your daily allowance, waking up Wednesday still wanting that treat and feeling unsatisfied. Wednesday evening was hardest because Neil is at football and he distracts me from my craving and I just ignore it. Thursday… I.Hate.Thursday….. weigh in day!!! So I can’t go to the group’s during the day because of the kiddies, I have to go to the 7pm one which means I was starving myself ALL DAY long and then not even drinking after 4pm in case the numbers on the scales went up!!! What. The. Fuck??? That is not normal. Which brings me to Friday and by the evening I crash and gorge on all those delicious treats I’ve wanted since Monday, then it’s Saturday and fuck it I’ve already gone off plan so let’s forget about Saturday. Sunday I’ll just spend the day loathing myself because of the last two days, go to bed unsatisfied and hating myself and start all over again tomorrow.  This cannot go on.

That was my week, every week. I thought it was working because I’d lost so much weight and was still loosing some on and off but this mind set is seriously unhealthy. Once I read this book, sat and thought about what I was doing to my body but more importantly my mental state (especially surrounding food) I knew I had to stop. Now I’m grateful I started Slimming World in the first place, it helped me loose a big bulk of weight I needed rid of and helped me form some new eating habits (mainly surrounding sugar). So for that reason I’m happy I did start Slimming World but the time has come to stop.

I would recommend the book to anyone who needs to fall back in love with themselves. I know I did ❤

Chat soon

Natalie Abraham AKA Mostly Mummy

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It’s that time of week again already and I went to group feeling pretty positive. Not that I was expecting a loss like last week, the 3lb I lost last week is usually a really good week for me and that never gets any higher really. This week I was hoping for 1.5lb loss and that is exactly what I got. So I am feeling good. This is the level I am hoping to maintain now through to my new target which is only 5lb away. I feel like I am back in the zone now, good meals, good plans, I am doing well and I actually feel great again. Not just when I stand in front of the mirror but in my head, I feel clean and refreshed again. This may sound cheesy but it’s true and in my house you need to keep a clear head and be on your toes because my kids can be a bit feral.

I am thinking of doing a foodie post next week. Just some go to recipe that I make that is syn free and something that most of the family will eat. Not sure what I will do yet but I love to read food blogs, slimming blogs and I am so obsessed with budgets, I am always challenging myself to beat the price of the previous weeks food shopping bill. So I thought a family friendly recipe that is kind to the purse and the hips will be a winner.

Hope I can keep up this level of motivation, I have alot of stuff coming up in the diary and staying on plan is the one thing that tends to slip. So fingers crossed. I hope you manage to stay focused on whatever it is you are trying to achieve.

Chat soon

Natalie Abraham AKA Mostly Mummy

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Hey everyone. I have been so so bad with updating my blog lately and I’ve missed it incredibly but I haven’t been in the right frame of mind for sharing these past few weeks to be honest, but all that is about to change so prepare to be bombarded. These past few weeks (I think at least 3 maybe even longer) I have had so much going on with the kids and life in general that I’ve not been myself. I was certainly not in any kind of mood for Slimming World. I had no room in my brain for this kind of commitment and the determination had completely left me, but I’m back. With a totally fresh approach and am back in full swing.

Over the past 3 or 4 weeks I gained pretty much every week, my meals are always pretty much on plan but then something would happen and I would just be like ‘F this…pass me that cake!!’. With so much going on all three of my children are going through big changes right now, my eldest has been picking his GCSE’S, my youngest son has finally been given a place in a special school plus lots of new therapies started for him and finally my daughter has just started on her journey towards possible diagnosis of ASD. So as you can imagine sometimes I just needed that damn ice cream, no questions asked. Then of course the more you gain the more you give up. I soon found, all other things aside Mum duties, housewife life (and all my other roles) the one role that was getting more and more miserable was me. Natalie. After thinking it over it was my body confidence that was starting to crumble a bit. Now I’ve never been a big girl, and most people would argue that just because I’m smaller means I should have a complex with my body (you’d be wrong) but I’ve always said you need to be happy in the skin you are in and I wasn’t.  Not even a little bit.

When I started Slimming World back in May 2016, after a few months and a few pounds down I noticed a smile again. A feeling of pride when I would get a lovely comment from a friend or even a sideways glance from some guy at the supermarket. It all helps. Mostly I was happy in my skin. Over the past few months I’ve had such a full on life at home that something had to give, and it had to be me. I’m a Mum and a Wife, I couldn’t be me as well there was just no time. Then I started my photography course and I could see a little glimpse of me in the mirror again, things had to change I couldn’t just disappear all together. Slimming World gives me the ability to love my outside which in turn gives me the ability to love my inside, which when your a Mum is super important because you often come last in the pecking order and it’s not an easy job.

So long story short, I’m back. Back on plan with a bang and feeling fantastic, excited and my mind is healthy again. At group this week I lost 3lb and am now 6lb away from the new target I set myself, which I would like to loose before my anniversary at the end of July. One of the few nights a year we have away from the kids, so to have an even bigger boost in confidence will work wonders for that night and my husband will definitely be pleased with that 😉.

Chat soon 

Natalie Abraham AKA Mostly Mummy 

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So I am super chuffed with myself this week because I had a loss. Not a huge loss but a loss none the less, and with a total of 1.5lb off this week I am back in the game. I really needed to see those numbers this week, I’m gona aim for 1.5lb again next week but any loss would be good. It’s helped this week that I’ve thought about my meals quite a bit and the heat this week has given me that extra push, with summer clearly on the way I want to be able to get in all these lush dresses I’ve been buying so that has definitely spurred me on. It’s been so incredibly hot the last few days I’ve barely been able to eat, only light meals like salads have been all I can stomach. I’m really not a sun goddess AT ALL, I cannot stand the heat to be honest so the last thing I can think about when it’s this warm is a hot meal. 

I’ve got some great ideas for meals for the coming week, a few different meals that we’ve not tried before just to keep things interesting because I can get bored of the same old meals (and we tend to stick to a few stables in this house). So I finally feel motivated for it all again, so watch this space (this shrinking space 😉). 1.5lb down…. 7.5lb to go!!!

Chat soon

Natalie Abraham AKA Mostly Mummy 

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So the first week back is over and done with and if I’m being totally honest I really didn’t give it my all. I went to weigh totally expecting a gain as it was also my star week and I tend to hold a little water and get quite bloated, I really would of deserved a small gain to be honest as I didn’t really think about my week and ate hardly any speed food but I managed to get a maintain. So I’ll take that and get back on track. This coming week I am going to try and cram in as much speed food as I can possibly stomach because that’s what really works for me, I would be happy with a loss ANY loss at this stage just to kick start me because I’m definitely the kind of person who pushes herself more when I see results. I need the numbers. The next few weeks are really hectic for me what with my new course I’ve now started, we also have some really important meetings with the local authority surrounding Connor and getting him a statutory assessment (I will explain this in a different blog post) plus I have actually been asked to review some projects and do some commissioned pieces of writing which will keep me really busy.

So I think I am going to need to meal planning everything I eat over the next few weeks if I’m going to have any chance at reaching my new target in time for our wedding anniversary at the end of July. I also have some meal plans, recipes and budgeting content planned which will all tie in (don’t make things easy for myself do I?). Anyway, a very short and sweet update this week as not much to report. Hope everyone is on plan if they’re following any kind of diet/lifestyle choice and I will update you all again next week.

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Natalie Abraham AKA Mostly Mummy

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So last week I posted a bit of background about my Slimming World life over the last year since I began and I promised (myself mainly) that I would be doing a weekly update to track my progress and hopefully keep me motivated. So here it goes.

*insert palm face here* Well, first week back and a 4lb gain!!!!! Wtf??!! It’s hilarious really that I was even shocked, I went to group this week (I go on Thursdays) 11th of May having not been since the 16th of March and I had the cheek to be surprised. I think during that time I’ve had about 3 whole days on plan and that was this week, so it wasn’t looking good. When I think about it, 4lbs in nearly 7 weeks isn’t all that bad considering and now I am only 1lb over my target and I’ve been at target now since the first week of this year so in all its not that bad. This was definitely the kick up the arse I needed to get back on plan.

Now technically I only need to loose 1lb to be back in target but that’s not enough, I want to loose more and slightly more than my original target that I set when I joined. I’ve asked my consultant to lower my target so that I have something to work towards, I’ve found that I need to be chasing something or I just get complacent and I love food which makes it so easy for me to pile the weight back on really quickly when I’m telling myself ‘oh it’s just a pizza! It’ll be fine!’…. Um no. So I now have 9lb to loose to get to my new goal! Eeekkk… sounds really daunting to me now but I’ve lost so much in this past year this bit should be easy right?

I’ve sat down and had a quiet word with myself and it’s back to basics, weighing and measuring, keeping a food diary and trying new dishes. I used to be so in love with it all and now it’s gone, I’m just not happy so I have to come at it like I’m starting all over again. Each week (generally Fridays) I will be tracking my progress here for me to look back on and keep me motivated, hopefully.

So here we go….  9lb to loose. Wish me luck.

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Natalie Abraham AKA Mostly Mummy

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I haven’t written a Slimming World blog yet but I’ve decided to do like a weekly update which will hopefully help me to stay motivated (we’ll see). So I originally started Slimming World back in May of 2016 and I got off to a great start, I was loving feeling better and when I saw weight dropping off I was totally addicted. I set myself a target and things were going pretty great, I was loving the comments people made and it really did wonders to my self esteem. HOWEVER (and that’s a big however) as soon as I reached my target weight I got lazy. Well I’m not sure if lazy is the right word, I always making a homemade meal from scratch for my family every day of the week so probably not lazy just bored.

I’m sure everyone gets bored on a diet I can’t be the only one and that’s how I started to see it, as a diet. It was a lifestyle choice or that’s what it was meant to be but it started to seem like I was punishing myself, never having a day off. So I just stopped. Not straight away it was more a gradual thing, a KitKat here a Ben & Gerry’s there but then it was totally gone. Now, instead of being at the bottom end of my target zone I’m hovering at the top end about to drop over the edge at any minute. I had totally forgotten the feeling of buying the size clothes I desperately wanted to be, forgotten the huge smile inside when someone told me I looked great, I just didn’t want it enough. So here I am, not fat or over weight like before but unhappy with how I look and feel.

Now I’m the kind of person who believes it doesn’t matter what size you are or how you look as long as you’re happy & healthy, now I’m neither. I’m starting to feel slow and sluggish and with my kids that is just in no way acceptable. I spend a huge proportion of my day running around after two small kids and a moody teenager, on top of that I have a hard working husband to cater for and a house to run. I ain’t got time to be slow and sluggish. While I am still within my target and I worked my arse off (literally) to get here, I don’t like the way I look lately. My skin has gone to shit (no one likes a spotty woman in their thirties) and I can see that muffin top creeping back in! (put down the muffins Natalie). I’m just not happy, simple as that. So it’s time to do something about it.

I’ve contacted my consultant and told her exactly how I feel and told her I want to lower my target, I need something to work for again. So I am now officially 9lbs off my new target, I’ve also signed up to do Race for Life in July (I must be mental – I get stitch running up the stairs) with a friend of mine. So that’s it, that’s the plan. I have a new target to aim for and a fun run to get ready for, so I’m going to use that and this blog as my motivation (as well as all the other reasons – healthy mind, body, do it for the kids blah blah blah). The fact is, if I’ve said here that I’m gona do, on all my social media platforms that I’m gona do it, to save face I’m gona have to do it. Right?

Writing is defiantly a form of therapy for me. I suffer with terrible anxiety and writing here on this blog as well as other places really helps to sooth me and take ownership of my thoughts. I also love to cook and I meal plan our families meals each week (because I pride myself on being a budget Queen). I thought I could share some family meal ideas, fave Slimming World recipes, budget meals etc. It’s something I enjoy which will keep me on track too. Combining writing and cooking sounds right up my street. I love to write and I love to eat. Win win. So all in all no actual update this week but it’s a new start, so from here on in my mission is to eat happy again. Join in if you like?!

Chat soon

Natalie Abraham AKA Mostly Mummy

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